misfitdead147

lame

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 04:44:53 GMT

I don't know how to explain, and I hate this, more so than anything, I want to just leave, exit this room, this state, this country, this continent, this world, this universe, this plane of existence. I just want to leave it all behind forever. And never have to worry about anything or anyone ever again.

I Was Wrong

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 23:26:39 GMT

Oh, when I was young
I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
But the world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone
So insecure
I blamed you instead, made sure I was heard
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I wouldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong

And I think about my loves
Well, I've had a few
Well, I'm sorry that I hurt them
Did I hurt you too?
I took what I wanted
Put my heart on the shelf
But how can you love when you don't love yourself?
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say

I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong
I was wrong, yeah
I was wrong

I grew up fast
And I grew up hard
Something was wrong from the very start
I was fighting everybody
I was fighting everything
But the only one that I hurt was me
I got society's blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someone's bad luck last so long?
Until I realized that I was wrong

I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
The only moment that I was me
I was wrong

Fun fun fun

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 02:18:32 GMT

So I'm sitting here next to Kati, and boy what a b*tch. Well anyways, just thought I'd say hello. So hello, yall have a good day. Later peeps.

Lame shit

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 21:49:46 GMT

Another mediocre day here in the Melbourne. Its boring as shit! But other than that, I'm doin ok. Today wasn't really good, and neither was yesterday. Not horrible, but not great. Well Igotta go to class, so I'll catch you later.

Whoot

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 00:19:24 GMT

Well I guess I am going to start this back up. College life has been interesting. I joined the Tekes, a fraternity. They are a great group of guys. I was also elected top be historian of it. So thats good. I am doing decently in my classes. I also am dating a girl named Kati. Shes very nice, but boy does she have a mouth. =P Well Thats about it from here. I;ll try to update this thing more often. Later folks

gheyed

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 06:55:56 GMT

once again I seep into the depressing grip of a life based on counter strike

Hey fellas

Wed, 10 May 2006 03:37:40 GMT

Well How ya'll doin? Its been a while. Well today I found out that some guy stole my coaching spot on the Powderpuff Football team, I am sorry girls, but I guess I won't be your O-line coach. Well otehr than that I am taking a bunch of Cambridge tests, and I have een very tired lately. Thanks to my friends for putting up with me, you guys are totally awesome. You all have a great day.

JAred

Bass Guitar

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 16:08:03 GMT

I really need a new bass, one that actually works when you plug it into an amp. Oh and here's another band name that I like that I'll never get to use: Billy McFat Fat and the Fatasses (it would be all heavy guys obviously). Ehres to hopin!

Now, here's a slow one.

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 05:01:04 GMT

I've been in love, but now I'm waiting
Don't ever want to worry about a thing
I sit at home and I wonder
Will I rise or will I go under
chorus:
Let it be me - if you're lonely
Let it be me - your one and only
Let it be me - to satisfy you
Let it be me - if you're feelin' blue
I've seen you around but you don't know me
I've watched your life but can't always see
I'll try and I'll try girl to love you
And when we die you will have loved too
chorus:
Let it be me - if you're lonely
Let it be me - your one and only
Let it be me - to satisfy you
Let it be me - if you're feelin' blue
You know your friends talk bad about me
Your folks say it's not supposed to be
You know girl your life is going by fast
Try to make it last
chorus:
Let it be me - if you're lonely
Let it be me - your one and only
Let it be me - to satisfy you
Let it be me - if you're feelin' blue

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 03:00:30 GMT

Today doesn't exist.

C.P. style

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 05:29:09 GMT

Today's forecast was sadness with a chance of anger.
Tomorrow's forcast looks like depression with some scattered hate.
I am Jack's sense of fear.

Today sucked.
Yesterday sucked.
Jared just wants to be happy.
I just want to be happy.
But Jared can't. He is one lonely son of a bitch. But he is way to frightened to do anything about it.
Jared is a pussy.
I am a pussy.
But there is one thing for Jared to look forward to.
If Jared doesn't ask, she can't say no.
Therein, Jared never feels rejection.
I never feel rejection.

(Thank you Chuck Palahniuk for helping me write this. I like your style. FOr those of you who don't know, go read fight club.)

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 04:06:38 GMT

Tomorrow may never come
Reach for the sky cause
Tomorrow may never come

Best Friend

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 05:46:13 GMT

I consider you my best friend, that is a girl.
IT pains me to see you act like that.
I know you'll get over it,
But still, I like it when you're happy, so talk to me.
Maybe, just maybe, I could help.
Who knows, maybe I'm wrong.
I don't know, bu neither do you.

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 05:30:39 GMT

I hate everything

I swear it be true

I dont want to talk about it, I dont vcare what you want to say

I dont care

HEre I stand burning every bridge

If i had any

Gosh

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 17:08:30 GMT

I am very, very tired...

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 03:27:39 GMT

Now I taught the weeping willow how to cry, cry, cry
And I showed the clouds how to cover up a clear blue sky.
And the tears that I cried for that woman are gonna flood you Big River.
Then I'm gonna sit right here until I die.

Mr. Cash says it all...

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 06:16:32 GMT

WHy Cant I tell you how much I like you???

Crappy Poem

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 20:36:31 GMT

Look into yesterday,
Look for a new way,
Something must be lost,
Look, no matter the cost.

Run away from the day,
Run to become Its prey,
Overcome by what must be done,
Run, you'll know none's ever won.

See the Thing for what it is,
See disaster come to bliss,
Nothing can compare to it,
See the path is never lit.

Walk the path,
Walk to where it hath,
Undone what you have done,
Walk to know you are One.

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 05:14:59 GMT

I cant believe I ever thought that. I know its not true, and yet i hoped, bah. When I ask you, when? Ive been having this type for feeling for as long as I can remember, IT wont go away, and it only gets worse. Its got to get betta'.

"Truth"

Turn around,
my face dragged down,
Can't seem to keep pace,
Left behind in the race.
There's no way to watch you go,
Ask and you'll recieve no,
no smile from me,
I am what you see.

"Fantasy"

So bright, majestic,
no rules so strict,
Bind the face I wish to kiss,
Feel life, wonderful bliss.
Forever closer, towards the light,
Believe that will be right,
Chase the everlasting beauty,
That is the rightful duty.
For far better than this,
Is such a wish,
Could be granted,
If only it was slightly slanted,
Down towards the humble home,
to the Great Unknown.
Hiding, ever so secretly,
Always chased, ever so carefully,
Always vaunted,
Always wanted.
I can easily see,
It will always escape me.

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 05:15:40 GMT

I try to make you feel better when you have a bad day, and you walk away from me to see him, which is okay, but you did not even say good bye. It is a very empowering feeling knowing that your friends dont view you with enough respect to get a simple good bye. I guess maybe i expect too much. I guess I shouldnt expect you to say good bye to me when you walk away in the middle of a conversation. This is not a way to see my smile.

Regardless of todays school, and getting a lil screwed at work, Danielle made my day great, I liker more and more everytime I think about her. She rocks. <3. Well I'm just glad my day feels worth it today. Two damn good days in a row. And I feel like I'm the luckiest person in the world. =D

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 12:42:59 GMT

I would like to be an introvert very much.

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 03:06:30 GMT

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"I tell you to enjoy life, I wish I could but its too late.."

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 03:02:04 GMT

I don't think I can talk to anyone...

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 18:58:48 GMT

I just hate the world.

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 04:15:58 GMT

I'm so fucked up.